Can I truly accept my fate?

Chow: Can I truly accept my fate?

Old man: Just look at your sentence, as long as there is an "I" then you can never accept anything.

Chow: But sometimes I can, and sometimes I can't. Why is that?

Old man: That is just a illusion of the mind. If you could accept it once, then accept it once and for all. Why do you accept it for a transient period of time and then forget the acceptance?

Chow: ...

Old man: You have never accepted anything to begin with. That is your problem. The illusion that you feel as though you have accepted your fate is all just part of the struggle not to accept your fate. It is very subtle. You have to pay attention.

*thinks for a while...*

Chow: No... Its not about accepting or not accepting...

Old man: Then what is it about?

Chow: Its really just about doing my time. To suffer and enjoy when I have to. There is no acceptance or denial.

Old man: You are correct. If you are aware of your acceptance, then you are in denial. True acceptance has no awareness of it. Remember that.

Chow: Thank you.